As much as I would like some understanding, I will not risk the friendship between 2 young ladies whom I adore, and love like they were my own, for my benefit. Because when I say I love someone, I mean it. With every bit of my heart. I do not see them as objects to be used, or puppets for people’s games. I will live with the regret and unanswered questions, before allowing someone to break that bond, or teach another little one that people and relationships are only useful for personal gain, and so easily disposable.
Threatening 11 y/o girls and using them as pawns. That is all the understanding I need right now, to know that someone is not worthy of my effort. I am sorry I wasted 9 months of my time, trying to remind someone of what it was like before their hatchet wielding mind started chopping it to pieces. I’m sorry I believed in someone so much, that I compromised across the board to demonstrate true loyalty, to someone that knows so little of it.
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In Tempore Veritas…
Still quite a bit of traffic coming in. Seriously, I appreciate the interest and concern, but there will be no major updates to this site for the foreseeable future. I will do what I can to demonstrate my love and concern for them, as well as to honor the dying wish of my friend, and insure the friendship between these 2 young ladies remains intact. But do not believe for a moment that I have or will forget. Every time I wake, whether it’s a good night’s sleep, or a rough night, I am instantly flooded with heartbreaking guilt and regret for leaving a defenseless little girl I cherish behind. So I will post public birthday wishes, and maybe an occasional thought in this space here, but nothing more. Besides, it was decided at the end of May that understanding would be best left to the professional. And she is doing an exceedingly thorough job. Honestly, receiving a colonoscopy in the middle of Times Square, live streamed on those jumbo screens and the Internet, would feel less invasive. But, that’s the price we pay for understanding, and she’s proven to be invaluable, presenting two definitive questions, that she and her work answer. Maybe I’ll be able to share those questions down the road, but for now, she’s in research mode.
Anyway, a couple days ago it was 03 September, and that marked a year since I turned a corner and forced myself to focus on the positive. To work to change my perspective, and hopefully others. That decision was based on my thinking about today, 05 September, which sadly, is no longer looked upon warmly as a day of positive change. While that experiment was only half-successful, it did provide an enormous amount of data to reinforce the facts. However, despite the reality of those facts, I am still focused on being positive, because every time I look at the “Cujo” puppet hanging on my wall, I know somebody I love will need that down the road. So, on that note, I hope everybody has a happy Egregious Lie Day!
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